He made me feel

HE MADE ME FEEL

If, I could sing, I’d be up with a nice intro like

You made me feel,

You made me feel

You made me feel like a ...hmmm

I did say if, I could sing

That said he did make me feel

For the first time in a long time

I had a kiss that made my brain focus on nothing other than the kiss

My lips did nothing less than look for his

And we were inside but I swear

I felt a warm breeze

For the first time in years

I had a kiss that didn’t make me wonder why he was chewing on my bottom lip

Or how long I was going to stick with this

Or more important still

Why I felt nothing

Nothing inside, nothing outside

Kind of like somebody kept borrowing my lips for a game of kiss

And my body kept getting dragged along as if to be reminded of what is amiss

So yesterday when his lips met mine

It created a sensation leading to a realisation

That had to be uttered

HE made me feel.

I woke up this morning expecting to discover that it was all a dream

Dream turned nightmare as I realise I was simply a pawn in a game of self satisfaction

But I was happily disappointed with a smile

That prolonged yesterday’s sensations as again

He made me feel

Thing is, sometime between then and now,

My confidence seems to have gone amiss

It’s been days and not a word

I’m waiting for a call that will not come

And it’s starting to dawn on me

I rushed in with uncertain emotions

Without sparing a moment for the repercussions

Are we dating or were we just cavorting

How many days must I wait to have confirmation?

The message I sent last night still has no affirmation

Now I just feel stupid

Wondering what is my status

Wondering how to reclaim my emotions

Knowing I sold myself short

Feeling stupid

Unsure if this is what he made me feel

But if I am honest

I had a choice and those were my actions

Yes that night he did make me feel sweet sensations

But in future

I know not to give my all away

For just one fleeting moment

When he really makes me feel

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